Sunday, September 19, 2010


I hate trying to convey a thought or a feeling when there does not seem to be any words to even begin to describe them. There are some things in life that you can only be felt, and unfortunately you can't tell someone how to feel those things. They are the rarest of feelings; more valuable than gold, diamonds, or life. They are what make life worth living. Unfortunately, some of us may start to have these thoughts and feelings at the most inconvenient of times. However, if you are able to overcome all obstacles thrown at you to interrupt your path, you will be able to enjoy an amplified version of this already, astounding feeling. I'm not going to call this feeling love, because that simply does not do it justice. It makes me sad when I see a lot of people who go their whole life with someone that they may love, but not have this "upper-tier" version of love with.. "We accept the love we think we deserve."

I can definitely see that I am not the same person I was ten years ago, five years ago, a year ago, or even 6 months ago. Obviously, we are ever-changing and ever-growing, so that is expected. But I feel I have become a completely different person. We all have our trials and tribulations that mold us over time... and it is up to us to decide if we want them to influence us negatively or positively. I know that everyone has their own demons that they are fighting... and I don't think that we have to fight them alone. I think that we all have different stories that no one else will ever be able to write. But ultimately we are striving the same thing... to be wanted and to belong; to find our place in this world.

We may all die alone, but we can definitely live together. I'm not quite sure the exact reason why we are here, but I think it is to learn to love; to coexist. I don't think you can truly know who you are, until you find someone who makes you feel those things mentioned earlier... You don't know your full potential until you find that person who makes you want to give your everything.

I don't really know where I'm going with this....
Just trying to verbalize some things...
Trying to understand them.


  1. Natalie, I was happy to see your blog! Good thoughts here. I particularly liked what you said about learning to coexist.

  2. I found someone who I want to give my everything. I have been fortunate enough to experience the "upper-tier." It's something I wouldn't change for anything and I never want to give it up.