Friday, September 3, 2010

Life is funny...

One minute you think you know where you're going in life, and the next you are upside down and backwards. So many times, I've thought I had it all figured out... and so many times, it's changed. One year ago I though I was going to be moving to a different state with a man I thought I was going to live with and potentially marry. Two years ago I didn't want anything to do with any sort of relationship. Three years ago I was still with my first love, thinking that we were going to get married and had hopes of having children....

Priorities change, opinions change, people change, and life changes.

Right now, I have no idea what I want out of life. I love doing hair, but who knows how much longer my back and shoulders will permit that. Today was probably the worst day as far as the pain in my back goes; and that really scared me. If I don't get that fixed soon, doing hair might not ever be an option... and I have no idea what I'd want to do career-wise besides hair. The thought of going to college petrifies me... I don't know why. Every one tells me I'd do fine, because I'm responsible, have good study skills, etc, but I really don't think college is for me. It seems like unnecessary debt. Trade schools just make so much more sense to me... But what do I know?

As far as relationships go, every guy I meet just wants a piece of ass. I'm at the point in my life where I want to date someone for it to go somewhere, not like some 3 week high school fling. It drives me crazy that once I start to think that someone is different, they just prove to be the same. And when I finally meet the most legit guy, it's pretty much an impossible situation. I don't know why I care so much about having someone... I'm young; I know that. But it is just nice to know that there is one person that cares about you and loves you and is thinking about you all the time. I don't know.

I think I'll stop while I don't sound completely pathetic....

1 comment:

  1. Hey, i follow you quite a bit on all your social networking things. Have a bit of advice on the schooling. should be worth checking out. I attended culinary school in a real college and accumulate over 100,000 in debt that is killing me. My wife wanted to restar college after we got married for something different, and i too wanted to expand on my degree. after searching and investigating, pennfoster is quite the legit school. It offers certificate programs, associates degrees, and 2 B.S. programs. My wife enrolled in an associates and i in one of the B.S. We are literally paying next to nothing for this schooling. i think all-told the total for the b.s. in business management will cost 4 to 6 thousand at the end of 4 years. that may be right up your ally for both cost, time management and fear of school.